Thursday, September 12, 2013

Our posts are always complete opposites.
I guess we just really aren't that alike.

Tuesday, September 10, 2013


I'm having problems bouncing back from last week
I feel distant lately.

 I wonder if he's noticed.
I wonder if he's hiding something --
He needs to talk to me like an adult
Instead of run away
I worry about him running away or giving up on me
Everytime I speak my mind.
I don't want to be afraid anymore.
I need to speak my mind.
I have too much stuff and it won't all fit in my
Head if I keep it in.

I always have to speak my mind.
I hope he understands and doesn't blow up
See...I'm living in fear :(

I'm not holding a grudge but it really hurt how I viewed
Our relationship. It from total fantasy to totally unpredictable.
I can't predict anything.
I also don't know what's there or not there.
I need a reality check from him
And honesty
Something is missing since the events of last Wednesday
And it's my sense of security

Hey Bitches!

Everything is wonderful right now. I love how things are and I love how happy I am. 
It's going to be a good week I can tell and it's only Tuesday.  
I love Chelsea so much. I've never been so internally happy just by looking at someone smile before...  It's cray.  

I hope she get's home soon.  I can't wait to kiss her. 

I also can't wait to get this iPhone on Friday... I need some instagram in my life lol.




Friday, September 6, 2013


Dear Cory,

I don't know how to get you to understand the difference between "how I feel" and "what is your fault".

Everytime I tell you how I feel, it doesn't mean it's your fault. It JUST means its how I feel.

I'm going to tell you how I feel.

I have alot of anxiety about what happend on Wednesday. I feel I can't trust you to not pack up and leave permanatly on a whim. You are very impulsive and it is scarey. I'm a very scared person right now.

 This is just how I feel.

I feel I don't have a good support system right now. When I feel "sad" all I want is a good hug and a reminder that everything will be okay.

I'm not blaming you, this is just how I feel.

I feel upset when you are not happy with yourself, because you have no reason not to be. Life can be simple here, with me, if that's what you want though. I don't like drama. I don't like getting called names ("brat") or thretened("im looking at apartments" "I'll move and get out of your hair")

I feel threatened.
I feel devastated.

This is just how I feel.

I feel very alone.
I feel a little depressed.

I'm not blaming you this is just how I feel.

I don't want you to be with me just because I'm the only person you know in Minnesota.
I don't want you to feel stuck.

You are not stuck.

How do you really feel?

I'm even afraid to post this because I'm afraid you are going to freak out on me.

Can I please just tell you how I feel???????????

Wednesday, September 4, 2013


I need lots of hugs and kisses
And a sign that everything will be ok

Monday, September 2, 2013


A post by Cory Fishbutt    (   Y . )  <--- butt
                                                   ^ butt freckle

So it's like 9:30ish or whateverish.
I've noticed that I tend to add ish to things I am not 100% about being accurateish.

Oh shish.

My phone is shut off today.
It's really sad. 
I'm even more shut off from the electronic world.

But I'm getting an iPhone 4s on straighttalk when I get paid. I deserve it.
But also I'm getting Chelsea some cute things :)
And her some money... cause she's helped me out so much... cause I came to MN so poor and hoboish lol.

I love her so much.  

Things are really looking up. 

I can't wait until she gets home tonight. 

So friikin SEXCITED.
I mean... excited lol... uhum... cough lol

Until next time, this is the RHINOFISHBLOG5000SOMETHINGORANOTHER 2.1.beta